Recently, I was thinking about how little time there is to do all the writing, reading, blogging, etc. that I love to do. L's napping in unpredictable, we are going to school less days (see previous posts) and summer is coming... I remembered how a friend told me (and she was told by her mom) that it takes until your youngest born is in kindergarten before you get your "you" life back- but then you do. Some days five years seems like an eternity. But what was my free time like before my daughter was born? I occasionally get a glimpse by looking back at my journals. There is a self importance, a lack of perspective and yes a neuroticism I don't wish to repeat. So maybe these 5 years will change me (no doubt I am still neurotic and self absorbed, but hopefully a little less). What do you moms think? Is this a time of rebirth? When you get a bit you your life back are you changed for the better? Or just more grey hairs and worry lines? I still have a year and a half to go. Time to be on hold: to play bubbles, laugh and cry with my daughter and look into her eyes for as long as she lets me. Maybe I can slow time down even more.
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